Undeserving, still loved

Its just been one of those weeks that I’ve been busy doing so many things (some important, some not so important and others not important) and was just finding it hard to be quiet in His presence. I’ve either been distracted, tired, working, etc. There isn’t just a guilt that I have for not waking up early and spending time with God (not in a religious way but in a 'I've not been able to give my time to Him who deserves my time') but an absence of peace and pure joy that I have when I spend time with God. Spending time isn’t only about me giving God my time and getting to know Him but a part that I need so much to be whole. Abiding in Him from the time I wake, to my journey to school, my interaction with my students, collegues and family, until I fall asleep. To be in fellowship with God is where I know I am found…..I am completely understood. There is no pretense cause I know that He knows EVERYTHING about me. To be totally bare and exposed…..and to know that I am still loved and accepted…..that is mind-boggling. I love my God for loving me even when I do not deserve it. I don’t have to do fast 40 days, live in isolation, or give Jesus ANYTHING for Him to love me…..He loves me just as I am. All I do and have done for Him is in worship for just how awesome He is in my life. I want everyone to know Him…..not the ‘religious’ or ‘prosperity’ centered Jesus that so much of the church has misrepresented Jesus as. But the Jesus that wants a relationship with each person. He doesn’t want robots….if not He would have created robots right? He wants to know you…flaws and all…..and not the façade you put up for the rest of the world. You can go to church your whole life and not know Jesus. Even right now, just get away from everyone and seek Him in the secret place. He is waiting for you. You do not need to be perfect cause you will get to know a Perfect God that accepts you just as you are and will enable you deal, heal and become a new man. 

“Evening and morning and at noon

I will pray, and cry aloud

And He shall hear my voice.

He has redeemed my soul in peace…..

Cast your burden on the LORD,

And He shall sustain you;

He shall never permit the rigtheous to be moved”

Psalms 55:17,18(a) and 22.