My perfectionist-self finds comfort in
order and makes little space for spontaneity. This is based on self-analysis and thankfully its something that is changing. As a ‘Recovering Perfectionist’, part of my remedy is confessing
and asking God to heal and save me from this ‘condition’ especially when I get
upset when someone (even myself) messes with my ‘perfectly-planned’ schedule or
if my plans for my future do not turn out the way I want it to. I have a goal I
am working towards. My aim in life is to seek to put Christ first in EVERYTHING and ANYTHING in my life (inspired by Matt
6:33(a)). Had to use the capitals to get the message across, in case you missed
it. Letting go and trusting God is my word in season. As I told someone the
other day, it is a sin not to trust God because it proves our lack of belief in
Him.
Time is of the essence.
Everything points to the second coming of Christ. But I must always remember
that the way God does things is different from me and therefore I must align my
will, emotion, heart and mind to His will for my life. I must do it everyday
cause sometimes I can go pretty off tangent. I feel things must move at a
certain pace (usually fast) when most times in the Kingdom of God, growth is
slow. Notice how the bible uses the growth of a seed to a plant/tree as an
analogy. That process is not overnight. A farmer plants the seed and waits. In
that season of waiting, the farmer waters and cares for the plant in faith that
the little seed will produce a beautiful plant that bears much fruit. During
the growth, the plant needs to be pruned, trimmed and in some cases cut down,
totally uprooted or it just dies. I’m sharing all these things cause even
though I have known this, I need to be reminded not to go ahead of God but walk
with Him through life. Trust Him as there is a time and season for everything.
I’m learning not to take matters into my own hands. I find comfort in the
scripture in Ecclesiastes.
Ecclesiastes 3: 1-14
"There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the
heavens:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to
gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from
embracing,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.
What do workers gain from their
toil? I have seen the burden God has laid on the human race. He has made
everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart;
yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end. I know that
there is nothing better for people than to be happy and to do good while they
live. That each of them may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all
their toil—this is the gift of God. I know that everything God does will
endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does
it so that people will fear Him."
I will end this with the Word to
minister to you. Prayer is essential as it moves the hand of God. As a
recovering perfectionist, my advice to you is not to control everything in the
known universe. Time is in His hands. Seek Him and let Him lead and guide you.
All moves according to His time.
Shalini x
